I really cannot be bothered with life at this moment in time. I even turned both of my phones off to get away from the world and walked to the tesco on my own to try and get away. Every time I crossed a road I hoped that there would be someone chasing away from somebody else or being an ass and would knock me over so I wouldn’t have to deal with anything anymore. i just cba. cba with everyone and everything I just give up well and truly. nobody understands though. Also all I want to do is cry in my duvet den and the tears will not fall, they won’t fall on there own anymore. I have to make them. I hate ignoring people as well, but then I hate hurting people with all the shit that I feel, so by ignoring them I feel like I am saving them from me. I no fucked up. but that’s just how I am, one giant fuck up. I just hate life in general and have been dealt a shit hand. eugh.